Monday, May 26, 2008

I've been offline for over 2 days

Hi there all -- I hate it when I do what I have done the last two days. I just attempted to escape and sleep. I got up at times but then went right back to bed. (2.5 days wasted) :-( I do that quite often actually. I hate to think what all the days I have wasted add up to. I know our time here is limited and I feel awful wasting my time.....especially since future health problems will have me waste MORE time soon enuf.
I take anti-depressants but they really don't seem to work. I don't even know if I AM depressed -- or if I am just a lazy, scared of life type person..... :-(
During my "sleep" I missed a thunder and lightning storm!!! (Darn it) I LOVE those and they are RARE here! I hate that I missed it. Oh well. I am up again today at least, and I HOPE that I do more than just hang out on SL and play on the computer - cuz I need to do some RL things too.

2 comments:

FD Spark said...

I wonder what was up with you but I figured you needed to sleep.
Sometimes I sleep like that too, I figure my body needs it.
Although I noticed the need to sleep was a whole more intense when I was on anti-depressants.
The only real alternative to anti-depressants is changing how we deal with our emotions and what makes us depressed in first place in my humble opinion.
Happiness doesn't come from a pill.
Happiness comes from our ability to manage our thoughts, our bodies and those things that we give power to make us unhappy.
It isn't easy though to gain control of those things that cause unhappiness or happiness if you've never had experience in doing so.
Anyway yep its hard but being self-critical not going to help you get there faster;) So there Nanana! haha
Love you in friendly G-rated way.
FD

Princess Ivory said...

You said:
"I take anti-depressants but they really don't seem to work. I don't even know if I AM depressed -- or if I am just a lazy, scared of life type person..... :-("

Don't EVER let yourself feel that way. Your doctor prescribed that medicine because you NEED it. The very fact that you worry that maybe you are just "lazy" instead points directly to your depression. Take it from one who has been there, and continues to live there. Don't give up on yourself. And don't give up on the advice of your doctor. It may very well be what keeps you alive some day.

Princess Ivory