Sunday, October 12, 2008

For whatever its worth ....

I want to clarify something and apologize to my readers .... I was VERY VERY excited about the new helper/care-giver that was recommended to me and who agreed to help me with my apt and lifting things etc. He was perfect in practically EVERY way! He was non-judgemental, honest, and kind. He could lift heavy things and was a good and eager worker. (and he liked the Beatles!) I was VERY VERY happy to have found him and was looking forward to a long association with him.

As far as I know -- we didn't have ANY problems in working together. He even talked about what we would be doing apt-wise in a year's time. I don't think he felt over-worked or anything. We had no disagreements or arguments. I don't know what the "medical emergency" was but usually people feel they can recover and are able to work again, after medical emergencies, so I can't help but wonder if there is something more to his deciding he can't work for me anymore than what he said in the email.

There was only ONE thing I was concerned about his working for me and I expressed it here. Unfortunately, in concentrating on that one concern, it came across as if it overshadowed all the GOOD parts about his working for me. I now really regret expressing the concern at all. Even though I shared no names and I felt I preserved anonymity -- I still shared things on a web page. Admittedly, it is one that I felt was/is only read by a few people, but it still is a public place and I really am VERY sorry that I shared my concerns here. :-( ESPECIALLY since the way I expressed those concerns made it SOUND like they were a bigger issue for me than they were. YES, I was worried about him and didn't want anything bad to happen to him but I DEFINATELY didn't mind sharing candy with him or sharing a meal. HECK -- I would gladly share MANY MANY meals with him and MANY MANY candy bars (*as long as the candy wouldn't make him sick) if only he would work for me again.

I wish there were a way where I could go back in time and un-do what I have done but I can't. :-( I can only apologize to whomever I may have offended with my posts here.


FD Spark said...

You didn't do anything wrong in my opinion.
There has been times I have been in same boat as caregiver when I tried to work, I am nice, sweet and caring person, very professional when I did work but my own medical stuff prevented me from really being able to work at 100 percent. He probably felt bad that why he sent you email versus calling you because because
it really hard to tell someone hey
this isn't working out my health can't handle this job." I have
been there numerous times its hard thing to tell someone else and even to admit to yourself especially when you really don't want to let others down.
I hope you're ok, I give you call later on this week if I don't hear from you my energy is pretty low myself right now.

AuroraSkye said...

Thanks FD. What you said helps. Still, I hope/wish that he would at least email me. He still owes me my Beatles book back (JOKE -- The Beatles book I loaned him is actually the least of my concerns)

I really DO hope I hear from him cuz I really am concerned about all of this and it would help to at least have a bit more closure. But, again, ty for your helpful words.