Toothache ....

Wheeeee -- on top of my cold that seems to be hanging on forever -- I now have a throbbing toothache (and I rarely get those), so now I have to find my Dentist's phone number and hope that I can get in to see him some time before the end of the year (Seems like when you are in pain =-= Drs/Dentists are full full full -appointment-wise). :-(

I must admit I am so tired of body maintenence -- it is almost worse than maintaining a car!

Hmmmmm -- I don't get it....

All my other photos that I uploaded on this blog -- let you click them to see a larger version. And I KNOW I have a larger version of that neat Celtic Horse picture uploaded,... but for some reason== clicking on that image is not working to take us to the larger version. I tried copying the HTML from the blogs where the pictures DO work (putting the correct image addresses in) but it didn't work so .... I just don't get it. Hmmmmmm. Oh well.

Since I seem to be in a picture uploading mood....

Here's one more before I go to bed..... this is of my first attempt at "Silks."
I like how they turned out - especially the faded colours. :-)
This one is available at the first place in my picks (in my profile on SL)
Actually I am typing just so I can fade the colours!

Sun/Moon Celtic Horses - Eternal Battle between Night and Day

I saw this during my travels in SL last night ...Isn't it GORGEOUS!??? I wish *I* could draw like this!

Well, since the SUN horse is winning at the moment and the dawn has arrived -- I think I will rush off to bed before my vamp self turns to dust. ;-)

Well, Heat has begun....

My VERY VERY good friends, FD, and Alpha and I - in our George Sgt Pepper outfits. :-)

It is 95 in Portland today. (ICK ICK ICK ICK) I think they are expecting it to be higher temps tomorrow (I LOVE summer -- NOT) lolol


I am sure grateful that I finally broke down and bought one of those "portable" (HA) air conditioners last year. It is sure being a LIFE SAVER for me today! It has the temps in my apt to be around the upper 70s or so -- when normally my apt would be OVER 100 at this point! I plan on holing up in here for the next 3 or 4 days 'til this heatwave breaks -- I sure hope the AC can hold out that long!

Funny -- Looking outside at the sky and a bit of a breeze - it doesn't LOOK like it is that hot out there but I know it is. I don't know why Oregon, in general, seems to believe in making apts etc with NO AC. (And we are not allowed to put the less expensive window ACs in the windows - where I live). :-(
I attempted to make the George Harrison Sgt Peppers Uniform yesterday -- I have a lot more I want/need to add to it but at least I have the basic part done. All hand-drawn. I can't wait to finish the rest of it and try to make ALL the Beatles Sgt Peppers uniforms but first I have to TRY to do the homework for my class today by 6 pm..... I don't think I will be able to get it done in time. :-(
My stupid cold is STILL hanging on -- I really wish it would give up and leave me alone. I keep THINKING that I am feeling better but then I start feeling worse again as the day progresses. I keep needing to cough and bring things up from my lungs -- and I keep thinking -- GOOD - this should be clearing me up so I can stop choking when I try to breathe, but somehow I seem to keep creating MORE stuff in my lungs that I need to cough up again.....(not that I am trying to be too graphic here) ... so I continue to choke and feel awful. :-(

Oh well - to leave things on a high/grateful note -- I am SO SO SO GLAD that I am not broiling in my apt at this moment. I wouldn't even be able to get online cuz it would be too hot to run the computer -- and I would just be showering and spraying myself with water and lying in bed feeling miserable. (Or trying to go to a theatre JUST to avoid the heat) SO BOY am I glad I have this "portable" AC. :-)

Beginning of Heatwave...

Well our 4 to 5 day heatwave is supposed to be beginning today. Fortunately it is not too hot yet but I am sure it will be soon enough - especially in my heat-retaining apt. Heat has melted candles (and Ukranian Easter eggs) up here, in the past.
I still have my stupid stupid STUPID cold/cough etc but at least I am feeling a HECK of a lot better than I did LAST week - so I am VERY grateful for that. :-) I don't know WHY this darn thing is hanging ON sooooo long --- but as I say == I am SOOOO very glad it seems to be on it's way out!
I hope to get on SL today and work on some "Sgt Pepper" jackets! :-)

"In my life..."

Today I knew I needed to blog --- for some reason my emotions are really on the surface today - though I am not sure why. While driving to my "depression class" - I found myself feeling such a strong ache of sadness within me -- missing George Harrison and missing my friend, Karen (who was also a Beatles fan and who commited suicide Dec 2005). I don't know why missing people hits me harder on some days than others. This is not any sort of anniversary date that I can think of. It just hit me soooo deeply today. I kept crying on the way to the "class" ...... and cried during the class (altho I didn't share that I was missing George).

The regular class leader is on vacation this week so we had a new lady taking over just for today. We each shared a bit of what was going on for us and I was the last one to share. It was a bit embarrassing because the others were all fairly mild, whereas I shared about how we are all going to die eventually and how it is inevitable that we will either get some sort of disease or die suddenly, and of course we also get to "look forward" to more of our friends and family dying off too. (Great mood I was in -- eh? LOLOL ... Fitting for a depression class, I suppose LOL)

At first the new facilitator cut me off about my negative thinking and how I should not think that way, and that irritated me because we are supposed to say what we are feeling and I am not going to be a "Pollyanna" about things. I said I am just being realistic here -- we all are going to die - as soon as we're born we are destined to die, it is inevitable. The older we all get the more chance we have at losing friends, loved ones, our health, even our memories. I am not saying that I want to spend whatever time any of us have left, being depressed -- quite the opposite really -- I want to spend my time productively and as happy or as at peace as possible .... but I am also a realist -- and pretending that I, my family, and friends are going to live forever just from the power of positive thinking is a bunch of Bull (imo)

Anyway, when the "class leader" decided to listen a bit instead of cutting me off -- it helped, and I think the other people got some good out of being able to be honest too. I know it helped me to feel a bit better to be able to cry a bit and to share some of these thoughts that I have built up inside of me -- to an outside ear. I live alone with three cats, and I guess that being away from local, live human contact can take its toll.

I am VERY grateful to have the people that I can talk to on here and in SL -- but at times I guess one still needs an occassional human right there in the same room with you -- even if it if only for a couple of hours.

I guess this cold is affecting my emotional self as well as affecting my physical self. (And it being the beginning of summer = my least favourite season of the year -- and heading into the first of what will prob be many heatwaves, is affecting me as well. [And that makes me miss Karen greatly, because unlike most people, she felt like I do about sunny days-- prefering the rain and finding sunny days to be depressing.... I miss having her here on the planet where I could at least feel that ONE other person feels the same as I do about the sun.... or having too much of it. GOD, I miss you, Karen! I really wish you hadn't succeeded in killing yourself, and leaving us all here without you]. :-(

Please don't mind the tone of this post -- I am sure I will return to my usual WONDERFULLY cheerful self (HA HA HA HA HA) soon. ;-)