I still wish I could figure out how to change the colour of this title .....

That last post was a bit depressing so I figured I would at least put a pretty pic in here --- Here is some of my art that Mykyl has graciously let me display at Faeria. I am very honored and grateful to have my artwork be a part of this lovely SIM. :-)

Tomorrow it will be a week from Christmas....

I am not particularly prepared for Christmas this year because my brother has decided that Christmas is anti- Biblical..... so he doesn't want to exchange gifts, put up lights etc. I guess that means we won't even drive around and look at Christmas lights as we have in the past. I don't have much of a family here and I really don't have many acquaintances to hang out with either -- so the whole situation has gotten me down. Still -- I LOVE the Holidays this time of year =-= especially BEFORE the actual days --- I guess I just love the mood of people thinking of other people and the anticipation of the whole thing. That is why the day AFTER Christmas (and often Christmas itself -- esp this year - I'm afraid) can be so depressing. I just wish I had more family and close friends in my life ..... and I wish that these special days weren't getting fewer and farther between (and more depressing each year)

One of my very close friends for over 30 years committed suicide two years ago Dec 13th. (She was only 45 years old). I'd discovered her and stopped her from succeeding from another serious suicide attempt in early January of 2004. It bought her almost two more years of life but in a way -- what was the use since she succeeded killing herself anyway in Dec 2005? She and her bf used to come up and spend the Holidays with us ...... Since she died we have not only lost her company but her bf's as well. I miss the Christmases we had with them. :-(

Another close friend who I have known since before I was born -- died a year ago this past November. In recent times she didn't live close enough to spend the holidays with us but in the past she lived with us so we had MANY Christmases together. My Dad died 17 days after his 53rd Birthday (He was a New Years Eve baby ....and died January 17th 1983 from a car accident) We never got to give him his Christmas presents the winter he died because he had been in the hospital at the time. (Unrelated to the later car accident) Another VERY close friend of the family died in 1998 -- January 11th. She, too, would often spend the Holidays with us. Both deaths were pretty unexpected -- ESP my Dad's. I know other people have sad tales around Christmastime so I know that I am not alone but these things still hurt (when I let myself feel them at all). :-(

I am grateful I HAVE a family -- tho I wish it weren't so very small == just my mom, brother, sister in law, and I. We have some cousins and Aunts and Uncles but they are far away and we are not really in contact with them anymore. It is so depressing how things seem to be getting worse and worse....but I also know that things can always get MUCH worse than this. I don't know HOW I will handle it (or NOT handle it) when mom dies, or if anything happenned to my brother and/or sister in law. Blah -- sorry == I didn't know this "week before Christmas" post would turn to this.....In a way, I guess it is no wonder I hang out a lot on SL --- and/or sleep often and odd hours to avoid things.

Hmmmmm that is strange......

I just posted the most recent blog and it seems to have taken all the others off the page!? I don't get it...... (Here is a pic of my friend, Zale and I).

wow -- Amazing- I am actually writing something two days in a row....

I doubt it will last long== knowing me =- there will be this short creative spurt and then it will go back to two months with no blogs at all --

As I say == it is hard to blog when you have nothing to say..... I tried to wake up at a normal time today but goofed it and slept til 7:30 pm. :-( At least I am doing some laundry and cooked some turkey breast before it went bad) -- (How is that for "dotty domestic"?) I also helped a friend on SL to set up her skirt maker and am sharing the settings for the skirt prim that I made. Now she is making skirts. I told her to tip the maker of the skirt maker cuz I think it is really neat that he made the skirt maker be free with only a suggestion of a tip === so I tip him quite often and try to encourage others to do so too.

Well, anyway== I guess I had better get on SL cuz I have to teach a class tonight -- :-)

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Christmas Presents for Alpha... :-D

Heya Sis -- TY so much for your comments !! Whoo hoooo!!! And, yeah, I was thinking of posting some pics of my new (and old) classes cuz some of the builds are kind of fun..... (Of course -- I think u are my only reader over here ..... and you have seen my class builds so ...... who knows really useful it will be to post them ... BUT posting pics is fun so here goes... LOL

Here is a pic of my newest class-- how to build a Christmas cat on a rug, OR a Cat on a Christmas rug. :-) This pic makes it look flat but it is made out of prims.... I like my supply jar for the class (A cross-eyed, fractal cat) I think it turned out neat! :-).....

Hi there again.....

Here is a link to that neat website where you can watch drawings as they are drawn -- this one is to one of my drawings of my cat, Blueberry, .... I hope whomever sees this blog-- likes the cat drawing. :-)


http://www.ratemydrawings.com/drawings/animals/159078.html

I slept a lot of the day away today -- now I suppose I could get on SL but actually believe it or not -- I am not sure I am in the mood..... Guess I am feeling a bit down but I am not sure why -- fortunately it is not REALLY down -- I hate it when I am feeling VERY low === this is just a bit melancholy and not sure what to do, I guess.

Ironically, I FINALLY start blogging a bit more and no one reads it LOLOL. ;-p